New blog hugs and continued misery

2012 June 5
by Tanya McGinnity

Comments. I love them. Especially the ones that don’t make me cry or shake me up completely when they either accuse me of being in a cult or offer up suggestions for me to be less of an asshole and to practice the life of an aesthetic.

Lovely Amy over at Daily Dharma dropped me some comment love so I wanted to send her over some thanks and hugs for the suggestion of how not to feel so messed up (see my last blog post).

Since I last wrote, things got even worse with more shitty, horrible fucking news. I’m treating it all with acceptance for what it is. This is the time where I’m really sitting in the fire. As much as I project onto this situation as to how I’d like things to be. As much as I’d like to wave a healing wand, I don’t have one. The only thing I can change is how I react to everything. How I carry this news. Examining my tendencies. Seeing the rough patches. Sitting with tears and fears (Admit you know have one of their songs in your head).

I used to think I knew suffering well. I had developed the taste of it when I was quite young and watched it morph over time. Light dramas. Huge blowouts. Every gradient of misery. I thought I’d seen it all. It’s subtle to see the different shades of suffering. Perhaps with age, loss takes on a different flavour on the tongue. Pain has a mild aftertaste of knowing. Tears become less salty maybe? Maybe time makes things suffering easier to carry?

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  1. June 6, 2012

    Thanks so much, and I am glad it helped, even if just for being positive. I don’t know what you are going through, but you are right. Your reaction is all you can change. Keeping that in mind, make sure you acknowledge your feelings fully, so that you can understand them. If you have time to really sit with them, please do it. No matter how painful it is, if you allow yourself to fully feel whatever comes up, you can release it and then have some clarity.
    I am finding that when I have anger, if I go let it out somehow, I realize what is causing such a strong response, and it’s often nothing that just happened, but rather something traumatizing from my past. Given the cosmic happenings lately, it is normal to feel out of whack, more emotional, less balanced, especially if you have Gemini in your natal chart.
    I hope that things get smoother for you, even if it’s only in your perception. ….for perception is everything.
    Blessings and virtual hugs,
    Amy

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