Sorry for the lack of posts, I just died
My final ‘One Year to Live’ class was last weekend and I must admit, blogging has been one of the last things on my mind since dying (symbolically dying, dear reader)
There always seems to be so much to do. So many books to read, movies to see, weddings to plan, work to do, activities to go to, so on and so on. If this had been my last year, I’m not so sure if I did such a great job at slowing down and enjoying my final days. I did however, live with passion and decrease the amount of aggression and pain in my life. Step by step, I’m becoming more patient with myself in being a lazy mediator and a grade B dharma student and there is a refreshing calm that comes from not putting so much pressure on myself and just being in the moment.
Engaging in the One Year program was the best decision I made last January. As dragged down and lost I was, I’m glad I participated and faced death straight on. I learned so much about myself and bonded with the small group of women who participated in this journey with me.
I still have so many questions about death and dying as well as plans to be made (putting off writing the will and still can’t decide on whether I want a DNR order or not) I’m still attached to this body and cling desperately to this life but I feel much more comfort and trust in the process of dying more than I ever did. Dying is as natural as living. What could be more exhilarating?
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